Saturday, November 13, 2004
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Im suddenly so afraid of going to sleep... im afraid of dreaming. All thanks to the dream i had last night... where what i really wanted to happen, happened, and everything seemed to be so real. I really really thought what i had been wishing for for months came true! I felt so sad upon waking up realising that it was only a dream, and it is not true at all. Maybe i should not take it too seriously, but can you imagine how it feels like? Hopefully... i dont dream the same thing over again... =(

How many parents keep their promise that they made to their children? I do wonder. When they made that particular promise, what did they have in mind? Is it that they feel that they can just make any promises without making it happen, as their children may not even remember it, and even if they do, so what? Or did they really make sure that they will do what they are going to promise before making it? Somehow.. i hate people breaking what they had promised earlier...

Well, these had been in my mind the whole day, and the more i think about it, the worse my mood is. I just suddenly don't feel like listening to any people or even talk. Yet, when my parents came home, i had to act as though im feeling alright and happy. Who knows, if they knew that im in a bad mood, they may even scold me. I dislike the feeling of not able to show how exactly i feel at that point of time. Think this happens to many people as well... don't you guys dislike it? Argh...


leaving...
-11/13/2004 08:57:00 PM-